1. Cancer Sucks. I participated in a donation-based workout last Sunday at Training Revolution in Wicker Park. All proceeds went to a girl named Lauren, who was diagnosed with stage II breast cancer when she was 8 weeks pregnant in March of 2015. She delivered her miracle baby (Nico) and was almost 2 years in remission when she was re-diagnosed in November of 2016 with Stage IV triple-negative breast cancer, for which there is no cure, She will be receiving treatment for her foreseeable future.
When I hear stories like this, it breaks my heart. I have another good friend my age who is also currently battling Stage IV breast cancer. She seems to be remaining positive and hopeful, and even found out 2 days ago (after 12 rounds of chemotherapy) that there was a huge improvement on her repeat PET scan and she is cleared for her trip to Jamaica!
Both of these ladies, along with 1 out of 8 other women who will develop invasive breast cancer in the United States at some point over the course of their life, have to find a way to live on. They have to get up, everyday, and choose to move forward with positivity and love, instead of negative thoughts and fear. They have to be a wife, a mother (to humans and/or furry kids), a friend, maybe a co-worker if possible, and deal with this disease everyday.
I loved doing this workout on Sunday, b/c when I felt weak or tired, I thought about these brave, strong, inspirational women. And I knew that both of them would have given just about anything to be able to be there, busting their asses and working out hard. And if they can endure their struggles and setbacks, weakness, fatigue, etc, I can damn well do 5 more burpees! So here's to the brave, the strong, the fighters who fight. Thank you for inspiring me and everyone around you on your journey. I wish I could take away your cancer. What I can say is FUCK YOU CANCER. I hate you and I hope you rot in hell and never get to sleep, and have to get chemo 24/7 that makes you sick and have diarrhea coming out of your eyes.
2. Springtime in February. Okay that was a long one. Let's lighten things up a bit, shall we? I know it's cliché to talk about the weather, but...CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE WEATHER?! I mean, the 70 degree days we had the first half of this past week were a total mood-booster! I think I believe in global warming, and I think I think it's bad. But if these are the types of odd weather changes we can expect, I might not hate it as much as I thought! (going to get a lot of shit for saying that, but take it with a grain of salt....).
3. It's all relative. We don't all have huge trials and tribulations going on in our lives right now, but that doesn't mean we aren't going to have an occasional bad day for a minuscule reason. It always puts things into perspective when you hear stories like Lauren's or Erin's, or countless news headlines about the wrong directions our world sometimes seems to be going. But we are all human and flawed in many ways. It is impossible to live with a mindset of how lucky we are to be able to walk, take a breath, hear music or even just wake up to see another day 100% of the time. Just the other day I was feeling sorry for myself that I can't seem to meet the right person (getting vulnerable here). 80% of the time I'm happy and enjoy being single, but the other 20% can get a little dark at times. It is hard to be a 30-something year old woman in a big city and meet a decent guy who wants and is ready for the same things. All the while having your eggs and ovaries flashing you their best pageant wave as they slowly die into the abyss...ya feel me? It's easy to sit there. In those feelings of fear or sadness, or with the question of what might be wrong with me that I don't have the love that I want. But we can't. I can't. So, I don't! It's really as simple as that. Sure, I feel it, acknowledge it, maybe express some emotions about it privately or with close friends or family. But then I make a conscious decision to think about all of the things I'm grateful for. It's almost ridiculous how fortunate I am when I take the time to really count all of my blessings.
So I went for a walk outside in the sun, put on a 5 minute guided audio meditation and thought about all of the people I have in my life who love me. And whom I love so much back! I thought about the girls I wrote about above and how they must feel living with the devastating news they've been given. I focus on the positive and slowly, my mind drifts in that direction and I am having a good day. This is something i continue to get better at the more I practice it...just like anything one wishes to excel in. So cheers to the beauty all around you and to the people you get to share it with. Carpé diem, bitches!
4. True Food Kitchen. This Place is the bomb of all bombs that aren't really bombs. I have eaten here at least a half a dozen times since it opened this Winter and it is truly a go-to spot that everyone should have on their list. I like it b/c the food is healthy/nutritious AND delicious. They also have great options for those with food-allergies and vegans AND offer a great wine list and fun cocktails. It IS a chain-restaurant, but don't be fooled into thinking this anything like your average TGI's. The restaurant is part-owned by Dr. Weil, and it's menu is inspired by Dr. Weil's Anti-Inflammatory Diet. They use local, organic sources whenever possible, and I just love everything about it. Book your reservation NOW!
5. I'm headed to "Some place warm, a place where the beer flows like wine, where beautiful women instinctively flock like the salmon of Capistrano. I'm talking about a little place called Aspen." If you don't know what movie this is from, we can no longer be friends. Wish me luck on the slopes and have a great week, err'body!! XOXO